Gavin Rossdale - Love Remains The Same

A thousand times I’ve seen you standing
Gravity like a lunar landing
Make me want to run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
Drift to you, you’re all I hear
Everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

Find the place where we escape
Take you with me for a space
The city buzz, sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through seven bars
I had to find just where you are
The faces seems to blur, they’re all the same

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don’t you trick me out
We shall overcome
So all have stayed in place
We should have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we’re over here

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time, too long defending
You and I are done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change

I, oh I, I
wish this could last forever
I, oh I, I
As if we could last forever

Love remains the same
Love remains the same

Hurting People's Feelings

im not sure where to start....

probably i could ask myself with

"why do i hurt the feelings of the people i care"

as much im trying to be nice, i sometimes end up being the bad guy.....
never wanted to hurt anyone feelings but somehow....it happens....
when this happens and i realized what i did, all i can think of how bad i felt and should apologize immediately.

this month i did it again....twice....
all i could say was " I'm sorry"...but im not hoping they will forgive me with what i did....even if my mood that time wasnt good.

im not sure why i hurt them....i never wanted to hurt them but..*sigh*

maybe i should go away....far away so i could not hurt them. i dont care if my feelings was hurt as long those people i care most are not hurt by me....but will it be easy?

i know im not a perfect person. i will always make mistakes and i will learn from it. by now i could have risen up my reputation as a most hated person.

i dont want to hurt anyone anymore.......

Currently im in meow meow city.....

over the past few weeks quite a lot of things happen since i get back.....


on the day i got back to kk....

my cousin married an older woman than him (older than me too) ....n his younger than me.....
as much as him become the main attraction, i too somehow got attention with question such as

"when is your turn to get marry"
"where is your wife?"

such question i could only answer with smile.....being the eldest grandchild, probably they expected me to have a wife 1st......

10 nov 2008 - 16 nov 2008

my parents were going to send my brother to kl, as he is going to study there....
so, im goin to be alone at home during those days coz my parents, apart from sending my brother, they also went to Padang n Penang for holidays.....

with lots of things were need to be done back home, most of the time i was at the home.
i was so lonely, by night i was like having a party all by myself.....alone.....bored.....

on thursday, i wasnt feeling very well, n i thought nothing really happen. the next morning at 3 am. , i was so in pain with my stomach, went to the toilet but nothing come out. tried eating something, but i end up vomiting like hell. during those time all i can think how pain it was. i cant barely move, stand, seat n all those. by 6 am, i called for help. kak big answerd my emergency call but ibu was the first to arrive. bring me to the nearest clinic for treatment. i was diagnosed to got food poisoning.....culprits...probably mee kolok that ibu gave to me or maybe something i ate or cook. got myself to stay at rumah besar, at least some1 will be there if i were in pain.

that day too, i found out that kak big wasnt feeling well. she kena tahan at SMC because the doctor dont know what she got. Probably, Dr. House and his team can solve the problem...LOL.
Heard that she did a lot of tests but still no answer to her sickness

18 nov 2008 - 23 nov 2008

nothing much happens except that i have to go to JPAN(my scholarship) to send them a letter coz i wanted to change my program. Currently im taking degree in electrical n elctronics but i need to change it as the job market for that course in Sabah is very small...n also i hate small things. i wanted to take culinary arts...erk....hahaha...joking only....i want to take degree in electrical power.
taking electrical power has a bigger job tmarket as it is needed everywhere. im hoping that my application will be succesfull.

24 nov 2008 - now....

my application was succesfull....hoping no problem at all.
my exam results are out...im gratefull that i passed all my papers but my pointer was getting worst....its below 2.5, the minimum pointer i set....... 2 papers i was hoping to get at least a B end up getting C-.......probably i should retake those papers.....lets just see how....

now im in kuching....not sure what im going to do during this 1 week.

I Can't Smile Without You - Gary Manilow

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see, I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you...

- somehow this few days i keep singing this song.......ya..its an old song....

What Happen During My Final Hell Exam.....

This is what happen during the past few weeks of my exam.....

So i tried to.....

but i ...

few days before exam, this happen....
As the exams getting nearer....
MicroP......

Control System....

Numec.....

POM.....

Thermo.....

Power Sys......
Now.... im so happy that this hell is over.....